Slow Fade

"It's a slow fade when you give yourself away..." these are words in a song by a group called Sanctus Real.
Remember I told you that I have been listening to the christian radio station? Well, I have to tell you, their tag line is "positive and encouraging"; while I find nothing positive or encouraging about this song, I do find truth. Just like an alcoholic or a drug addict doesn't wake up one day addicted when the previous day they were completely sober, I did not become the person I am today overnight. It was a slow fade. Over the course of time, I went from an Army Wife with a great marriage and family to a single mother with almost nothing. I slowly figured out that I was tired of the "needs of the Army" always coming first. I figured out that my wonderful and loving husband took "service above self" very seriously. Don't get me wrong, I am very proud of his service, I just didn't want to be 2nd place anymore.

so, I haven't been keeping up with my walking and I didn't finish my first project from my quilting book. my goal for this weekend is to walk today and sunday and to finish the project. now that i've said that out loud, I have to follow thru...maybe this blogging thing is good?

A Whole Week Off!

Because of my job, I have a whole week off for Thanksgiving. This is great! Of course, I will probably squander it as I am normally too lazy for anything else. Okay, that's not really true. I have a goal this week. Well, the goal is going to take more than a week, but I'm going to get started this week. I want to make a quilt, so I have bought a "Teach me to quilt" book written for preteens and am going to start at the beginning with a small project. Maybe by the time I get to my summer vacation, I can start on a real quilt. I really want to make one, but I don't know for who. I find my projects sort of start like that and by the time they are done, I have been guided(?) as to who they are to go to. I made a prayer shawl once and as it happened, by sis in law was ill at the time I finished it, so I sent it to her. I guess when things are ment to be, they just fall in to place.

Well, I went for my 20 minute walk yesterday! I've even managed to start dragging my mom along. So, now I have two projects to get anybody who reads this updated on. My training for the Race for the Cure and my quilting.

Life Today

I have found myself listening to the Christian radio station lately. Oddly, it's comforting. I've been away from the Church for so long, I don't really know if I could find my way back. I know that God and His Son are all forgiving, but you have to ask for it first, and I'm not sure that I'm truly ready for that. I think it has more to do with not being able to reconcil within myself than asking God to forgive what I have done.

Anyway, that's my story for today. Maybe tomorrow I'll have a different outlook. Today, I have plans...sort of...thought I would cook a small Thanksgiving type dinner for my mom and dad and son...they are all abandoning me for the holiday this year. Then, it's my day for a 20 minute walk! I know it sounds petty, but I'm in training to do the Race for the Cure in April. My brother, who I trust beyond all others to guide me in all matters fittness related, has instructed me to start out by walking 20 minutes every other day. He promises me that I will be ready in April if I follow this path...eventually, I will start to walk for 15 and run for 5 and work up from there. :)
I'll keep you posted on how it's going.